more on confirmation pics...

more pics...

P/S: the pics are arranged form ending to the begining

The soldier of christ

look at the amount of people present!

praying while preparing ourself for the ceremony

from the nearest: nichole,rachel,louisa,sherie,me and michelle

our godparents

outside church

As much as i don't wat to admit it...i do miss my bro...

yesterday been looking thru my younger days pic and suddenlly i have this feeling that i actually misses my bro...

I still remember how i use to follow my bro and copying each and every step my bro did when we were younger... I remember how he used to be frustrated about me copying every single hobby he had weather it was collecting coins,key chains,pokemon cards or yo-yo...My reason for copying him when we were younger was so that we have things in common and we are able to spend some time together playing all those things together.Although i copy him but he always complete his hobby whereas i always do things half way n juz let it end like that and that is also one thing that make me upset for unable to have my bro's determination to complete things that we are doing...

I remember we used to play together, go places together, and bully each other " or more correctly he bulying me". Although many times we fought , the amount of curses i used on him and the bad things i said bout him,but no doubt i still like him... I used to wish for him to get out from home as soon as possible so that nobody will scold me nor be the one who have the special privilage to use things first... everything in my house seems to be his! weather it is the computer or toys or just about anything. He often say " it's mine!!!" But ever since he is in form 4 i felt he began to distant away from me... He no longer is the someone i knew anymore.He seems to me like a stranger staying in the same house... We barely talk anymore...Whenever i try to talk with him, we will end up fighting... So i decided to stop talking with him after sometime.

Things have changed a lot between us, we are just so call "brother and sister" but we are not that close anymore... I sometimes which that we can remain in the childhood time playing together and having fun..although i was being bullied iam still happpy and satisfied... I used to do many things to gain his attention but i end up making him more and more annoyed of me...i remember that we use to go to leisure mall,redang, australia, genting, my first time to mid valley together... He is the only one for me to play with as my age gap with my younger bro is too big. But now my bro no longer go out with me, i can actually count how many times with my fingers he been out with me since this last few years... I felt sad n i am so anvious of my frends who have great relationship with thier siblings but me... i am neither close to my elder or younger bro... iam juz... stuck in the middle...

confirmation pics and st.john agm pics~

St.John Agm

lol all of us bully wei mei hehe

y am i the only sesat one without a headgear??!

Confirmation

This is where it all begins~ iam far behind~

as u can see in this pic i and the girl next to me at 5th in 2nd row

was later transfer to the far end as we were blocking the people behind us :(

discrimination towards tall people...

me and my bro~ finally he is taller~

*cough cough* after he stand one steps higher hehe

i hate it when my eyes close when take pic!

from left~ michelle,grace,valerie and me~

Finally after years of skipping school, we got scolded...

Lol i guess teacher were really pist bout us skipping school every friday, before this she juz tutup sebelah mata acting like nothing had happen but today finally she speak up. Last friday only 11 out of 28 students turn up in class haha damn syok but our record is 5 out of 28 hehe still can't beat it . So teacher ask us to write a letter to her * hmmm anyone got any idea on wat excuse to write?* . Then she lecture a lil bout now is not the time to take study leave and we should come to school as the teacher still got many tips to give and things to teach *pulezzz tips my foot those kiam siap teachers kedekut ilmu keep everything to themself only hehe*. Anyway this week can't ponteng anymore must learn to be a good gurl and go to school quitely while listening to those teacher's "teachings" ...

CONFIRMATION WAS GREAT!!!

wow seriously confirmation is like seriously nice!!! Finally its over. When i first went to wisdom hall was scolded by tracy and ana for saying i "melebih-lebih" about my skirt. Pls i say it look ugly coz i really don't like it, u should see it before i ask the tailor correct it! then u guys won't say i melebih-lebih anymore! Anyway everone else look so pretty!!!! most of them dress up like princess or even some look so cute like barbie doll,etc tracy hehe. Mr leanord was really angry as a lot of them was not punctual so he look both the doors to the wisdom room and made those late comers stand outside * evil evil * . At 9 we begin to enter church. The whole ceremony were so grand and wonderfully. There is one time where i was so into the whole ceremony i really felt something~ i began to shake and tears starting to roll down. I really never expected me to tear u know, and this is not something i can control it juz came out without me wanting too but in my heart i felt ssooooooooooooooooo happy!! the priest said we did well singing and answering loudly which makes us really proud hehe. I really thank mr leanord a lot for helping us to prepare ourself for this ceremony and thank you so much that u have help us to experience this special feeling and moments. When we sing my eyes have seen the glory we walk into the santuary to take photographs. We are like some sort of celeberities like that, we were standing infromnt of like few thousand people, * it juz like standing in the middle of the stadium* while people taking pic hehe. Me and michelle were ask to stand as the side since we are blocking the others T.T sob sob... We took so a lot of photographs ~ i will try to upload it here someday~

Then we proced to the hall for fellowship, there again we took phtographs and everyone was like hugging with every single person they saw ~ boys and girls alike ~ then we thank the archbishop,priest and not to mention out teachers mr william and mr leanord.

Went home and there were present from my aunt, a teapot set since she knows that i love to drink tea! love the teapot so much it is in the shape of a pig which looks sooo cute! and then my grandma bought me a crystal crucifix with lighting, my mom bought me a gold corss necklace and also my dad gove me 50 bucks hehe. Never new confirmation can get so many things hehe. Then went out for lunch before i go to tuition.

All in all today is one of my happiest day!! was really happy and i hope that my faith will remain strong and be even stronger as time pass.

confirmation tomorrow, YIPPIE!!!

Finally after so many years of Sunday class,tomorrow is finally our big day ~ confirmation!!! I am feeling really excited and happy, since i have juz done my confession so iam really relieve as now all my sins are forgiven. This morning is a really busy day, i am suppose to attend the morning mass at 7.30am but i overslept, * shouldn't have watch x-man last night* so i went to church at 8.40 while picking up my godma from the KTM station. So to sum up this morning i had, rehersal,confession,choir practice and also decorating the church.

this morning although there were only half of us, 45 out of 90 turn up for the choir practice, we sang wonderfully and beautifully! i think when we sang bersama malaikat spirit of god mr leanord was touch that he even join us singing. He said that if we sing like this in church tomorrow he believe that the congregation ,our parents and god parents will cry since we actually sing from deep bottom of out heart... all of us were really happy bout his comment and we will definitely sing our best tomorrow!!

The commities actually bought many roses, cream, white and peach colour. Those roses were beautifull and they have such a fragrant smell but really hate those torns on them. We actually spent rm 300 for those roses which is really expensive! But i think it is also worth it since it makes the santuary looks even more nicer.

After tomorrow, it is goodbye too all my cathetism classmates, i will miss them so much! Although i must admit i am not close to them all this years even though we know each other since 5 years old but i will definitely miss them. I will also miss mr leanord teachings. He actually gave the class a lot of joy and laughter with his words and arguments hehe. He is the one who taught us not to take our faith lightly and make us think about our faith for real! Although he uses many unkind words in class like " u all good for nothing catholics, useless shit and call us swine,dogs, ass*donkey*" but wat he call us actually give us a knock in our head and make us realise what a hypocrite are us. I hope that through this confirmation iam able to strengthen myself in my faith and also be closer to god.

May tomorrow be a wonderful day!!!

p.s ~ sorry ya that iam unable to place any photo here since there is something worng with my usb port but i will try my best to get some pic and place it here if possible.

skirt ~ confirm ugly and mom ~ damn scary

i got my skirt after school,tried it on and it still looks ugly so i go ask the tailor again to fix it for me. At 4 pm took my skirt, again i tried it out ~ IT IS STILL UGLY!!! urghhhhhh can't that damn skirt fit my body correctlly??? The tailor seriously suxs and i will never go there again, NEVER! I juz gonna wear this skirt once for confirmation and out from my drawer it goes.

Today asked my mom for permision to watch movie at mid instead of going school since 2/3 of my class will be absent. My mom roar at my request! this is how our conversation is :

helena : mummy tomorrow hor i don't wan go school but can i go to mid or not? neo as me go with her.

mummy : aiyah! i donno la don't ask me!

helena : ...

(after a few minutes)

mummy : who's daniel?

helena : huh? daniel who? neo la not daniel...

mummy : y can't she ask somebody else to go with her? y must she ask u to go??

helena: coz i also interested in watching mah...

mummy : u ah wanna die ah! didn't go school wanna go watch movie!! huh wat is this don't wan study!!!

helena : .... ( thinking in heart ~ i still won't go school rite so can't i juz go and watch in peace? )

during lunch asked my mom for the 2nd time

helena : mummy so how, can i go mid tomorrow?

mummy : don't ask me la, u wanna go is your problem!

helena : (slightly happy tot i can go) so i go ask grandma to fetch me ok?

mummy : u ah really USELESS! donno how to help in house only know how to cause trouble only know how to mah fan people!

helena : *shock* ...( i was just going to watch movie wat so mah fan)

mummy : continue scolding....

helena : oklor don't go don't go lor....

so in the end after long lecture iam unable to go mid... i called neo to tell her bout this but she end up saying " helena, i hate u, hate u, hate u so much better go play maple legakan geram" she repeated that many times but i know she was juz playing hehe.But anyway my conclusion is my mom is really scary when she is angry, she will take back all the things that i didn't help her in house " which i did at least a lilttle" and scold me with it haiz....

as i expected...

i been having a really bad feeling about how my skirt will turn out and to my predition i am right. Today when i tried out my skirt i was stunt at how ugly it was! the skirt is totally DISASTEROUS!!!! the moment i tried it out, i look like a 60 years old grandma! the skirt was so huge and long. It was so weird they took my measurements how could they make it till like this??? i asked them to change it and make it shorter and smaller so hopefully it will look much better...

cruelty...

just few minutes ago when i read the news about a 4-years old girl murdered after missing for two days i was really shocked.Her body were chop,charred and thrown into few places. How can anybody be so cruel towards an innocent n cute little girl??? It really freaks me out to think that there are such cruel murderer hanging around in this country. Can't they just use thier brain and think? how would they like if someone did the same thing to them??? this freak deserve to die miserably i hope when they meet thier judgement day god will say to them " U BLOODY FOOL!!! HOW COULD U DO THIS TOWARDS AN INNOCENT CHILD!!" and i hope GOD will make him experince the feeling of the child being murdered himself repeatedly in hell! Each seconds i am here winding and willing saying how miserable my life is, i realise that they are someone in danger of dying... i pray that all the souls will rest in peace and let all this murdering stops once and for all...

i miss school on Friday again

I don't know y but i have this owful habit of skipping school on friday since form 1! But i will try to stop skipping class since yesterday mrs lim was "shaking her head" n say thati have such a terrible habit when she heardmy conversation with my fren about skipping school. Must learn how to be a " good girl" di. Anyway today spend my morning looking for cloth to make my confirmation skirt. Really suxs got no cloth that actually have matching clour with my blouse! hope it won't turn out to look terrible on me...