FACING A DIFFERENT CHAPTER IN LIFE WITH CONFIDENCE!!

sorry ppl but i have to leave the blog hanging...

2009-07-07T22:10:00.001+08:00

sorry ppl i know i wanted to update my blog once again but i am really busy with work n during weekends. So for now sayonara n i hope to update soon!

a test

2009-06-29T17:46:00.001+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

to sum it up, i had a blast for the past 2 weeks!

2009-06-27T17:40:00.009+08:00

What i been doing for this pass 2 weeks:
1. shopping
2. outing
3. dancing
4. swimming
5. catch up with schoolmates - chin n josh especially
6. when out with frens
7. went for the free transformer movie by BAC at KLCC
8. went for the TERATAK riverview outing with college frens XD

i shall skip the details n let the pics describe it all ^^

1. sg wang - went out with josh,su yen,chin,tracy, hurash. Met with wei mei n mr bao. My mom was making a huge fuss bout the H1N1 thingy n was really unhappy bout me going out but i still went anyway XD. Went shopping n saw lotsa nice things which i wanna buy but when i look in to my wallet * sigh kosong* i shall only wave goodbye to those belove clothes :(
with chin n su yen ^^
MR BAO n chin after her rebonding
the long process *yawn*
the loving couple keke~ hurash n tracy

2. KLCC - watch transformer with fellow BACians, the whole cinema was filled with BAC students! its feels really different watching with ppl from college then with random strangers, the theather were filled with laughter hehe. Thanks to jenn woei for helping me to get the tickets XD later on went to sakae sushi with jing jun, sunny,may ling, meng yee n sing ying. Had a yummylicious meal n lotsa camwhoring, we even camwhore at the park but the pics ain't with me rite now ^^
trying to squeeze into 1 pic
with sunny * say mickey!*
with bubbly may ling

3. Teratak riverview - 18 of us went, its by far the most awesome outing/ camp that i went for full of laughter, beautiful scenery n surrounded with awesome frens.
jason playing the guitar while we all attempt to sing hehe
yee hann look so happy for making me look shorter :S
uhm my expression said it all * i ain't happy*
place where we eat!
group pic!
jun bin n jing jun bursting into laughter due to sunny's hercules pose

although darren is drunk he can still show some pretty awesome magic trick

card game!

weeeee~

~~the girls~~
jeffrey who insist on sleeping in the same room as us :S
dangerous ppl haha

An awesome camp!

2009-06-19T21:59:00.002+08:00

the outing was awesome! its seriously the best camp i ever had XD, shall blog bout it tomorrow or soon, too tired to type more... adios!

sayonara

2009-06-17T10:06:00.001+08:00

i will be going for an outing with college frens, will only be back on friday. Shall upload some pics then XD see ya!

a busy busy day

2009-06-15T13:59:00.005+08:00

Woke up 5.30 am to send my bro to airport and i drove all the way there n back! woot~~ since its really early, there r only few cars on the road so i can drive at 120~140 km/h without worrying crashing into other ppl's car XD.

Reach home about 9. 15am then went out again with tracy to school to take our SPM cert. We were pretty worried that our cert were burnt down along with the school block. The whole block where the staff room is situated is badly burn, i can only see black ashes where it used to be a staff room.

Anyway when we r trying to get out of the school, there was a dam TNB truck parked at the entrance so our only choice was to get out thru the side entrance but it was block with motorbikes. So tracy and i tried to move away the bikes, but we failed miserably instead end up with dirty hands and sweaty body :(

After taking our cert, we went to metro and shop for some stuff for our outing on wednesday and i bought a jeans too weee~!

the clothes i tried on earlier, i like the top but its a lil pricey :(
bought the jeans though for 100 bucks
*thanks mommy xoxo*

A new layout & a new post!

2009-06-14T20:14:00.002+08:00

After several pestering from Tracy i decided to revive my blog again! hope i can keep it updated during this 3 months of my holidays before my degree~ enjoy!

BAC prom 08

2008-12-02T10:48:00.004+08:00

Seriously kudos to the organising committee for the well plan prom night!! Well since i am involve with the performance, my frens n i gather at college at bout 2 n left for prince hotel bout 2+ pm. We left in 3 cars with eve as the lead car. I learn a lesson from that journey *never ask eve to lead the way!!!* honestly i wonder y my parents don't allow me to drive, although i admit iam a "lil" bit careless but i am definitely not reckless like eve lol. Jason who drives the other car having difficulty with following eve's car, she keep dissappearing from view, n Rebecca is already secreaming as the petrol is empty n we doesn't seems to reach our destination even 40 mins of journey. finally after an hour we reach prince hotel, though the journey suppose to be only about 15 mins long = =

Reach prince hotel at about 3.15 pm, proceed to the banquet hall, the place is really beautiful * i honestly thought the place will look dull*. We then practise our respective performances, i am freaking nervous then as i still can't do my steps properly n stupid melvin added a really helpful comment " helena u dance like a stick!!!!!" T.T can't u lie and console me a bit? I really tot of dumping yee hann n wen li to dance themselve but i manage to face my cowardness.

Around 5.30pm went to the hotel room n prepare for the prom. The seniors were busy removing the thorns from the roses n the mess they made in the room is really undiscribable * i wonder how the cleaner will react when they saw the room lol* . Since me,yee hann, n wen li r all clueless with make up, we asked eve to make up for us, seriously eve thanks a lot!!

Everyone look so gorgeous in the prom, the guys look really smart n the girls look so beautiful! The performance it good especially those who sings while playing the guitar, if iam not mistaken the song is called zombie. Eve's performances is superb, the magic show is amazing n mr rajan's performance its awesome!!!! mr rajan perform along with ms donna's son who played the guitar n mr rajan's son who played the drum.I was admiring ms donna's son too bad his younger then me *sigh* . After all the performances we dance the night out till 1.30 am, yee hann n i went over to times square n spend a night at my aunt's place.

p/s : only had some of the photos with me will upload more when i receive the rest of the photos.

my blog's update after years of slumber ^^

2008-11-20T00:10:00.002+08:00

well juz finish my As examination thus iam having my 1 week break. For those who is wondering how i did for my exam - bad! Keeping my finger cross that i don't need to resit for my paper next year though i know that i have to resit for my acc T.T but i really don't want to resit for LAW!!!! its a great torture taking that law exam :(

Time really flies! without notice i have already been in college for like 11 months! i remember during the first few months of my college life, i used to complain bout it being boring n how much i miss my school n frens but thank god that i made some great friends in college which makes my life in college more bearable n enjoyable :D i remember during the month of august, melvin,eve,christine n me were talking bout how we first met n talk in college. Surprisingly or not, all of them mention that they tot i am a really lanci type of person =_=" they complain that they said "hi" to me but i totally ignore them haha, well i really apologise to any of you if i have ever done that. I never mean to ignore anyone its juz that i tend to spaceout n i am in the comfort of my dreamland thus not knowing wat's going on with my surrounding. Fortunately their perception bout me changed after knowing me haha.

I guess my 1 year experience in BAC isn't so bad after all ^^ econs classes r entertaining with mr Aria there, had a good laugh at the way some of us behaved in college n having good company in class :) hopefully next year will be even better. Hope to create more memories before leaving to other college/uni next year ^^

a beautiful pray

2008-11-19T23:47:00.001+08:00

I thank You for my being able to see
and to hear this morning.
I'm blessed because You are
a forgiving God and
an understanding God.

You have done so much for me
and You keep on blessing me.
Forgive me this day for everything
I have done, said or thought
that was not pleasing to you.

I ask now for Your forgiveness.
Please keep me safe
from all Danger and harm.

Help me to start this day
with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.
Let me make the best of each and every day
to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.

Please broaden my mind
that I can accept all things.
Let me not whine and whimper
over things I have no control over.
And give me the best response
when I'm pushed beyond my limits.

I know that when I can't pray,
You listen to my heart.
Continue to use me to do Your will.
Continue to bless me that I may be
a blessing to others.

Keep me strong that I may help the weak...
Keep me uplifted that I may have
words of encouragement for others.
I pray for those that are lost
and can't find their way.

I pray for those that are misjudged
and misunderstood.
I pray for those who
don't know You intimately.

But I thank You that I believe
that God changes people and
God changes things.
I pray for all my sisters and brothers.
For each and every family member
in their households.
I pray for peace, love and joy
in their homes; that they are out of debt
and all their needs are met.

I pray that every eye that reads this
knows there is no problem, circumstance,
or situation greater than God.
Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight.

i seriously hate public transport...

2008-07-14T22:53:00.002+08:00

seriously i don't mind if i have to be squash with hundreds of ppl in the train but for the train to be delayed for 2 hours plus is totally unacceptable!!!!!! stupid public transport service...

i completed a post

2008-06-24T13:51:00.003+08:00

well i drafted a post bout my dec holidays in jan but i was so lazy to complete it till now so if any of u still intersted in reading it, click on my january post :)

it's juz to sudden...

2008-06-03T14:28:00.002+08:00

This morning when i woke up at 8 am i check my phone n saw 2msg one from tracy n the other from lai. I first read the msg from lai "omg helena it is true that tracy's dad pass away? reply me asap" i was too shock n my heart was pounding so hard that i tot it gonna explode any moment, i quickly check the msg from tracy " my dad die la!!" is wat she wrote, looking at the way she wrote it makes it sound like a joke but i know that tracy isn't the type of person to make jokes about this kind of issue... i ran downstairs n immediately call tracy... when she pick u[ the phone i can hear her sobbing... at that time i am really sad n devastated for her... I know her dad for about 10 years. Although he doesn't talk much but i can see that he is a responsible man, he took care of his family well that all of them need not worry bout their financial state... I heard of many good things about him from tracy... I felt really bad as iam unable to do anything for her except for praying for them... i know their life will be tough from now on... i really wan to visit her but she isn't answering her phone n i am scared that i might disturb them if i suddenly visit them at this solem moment... i pray hard that their family will be strong throughout this tough moment. I hope that those of u who read this post will also pray for them...

jpa scholarship

2008-05-12T22:45:00.001+08:00

Haiz well its kinda expected that i didn't get it but i guess a lil hope wouldn't hurt rite? I gonna try appealing at least i still got a slim chance of getting it hehe.

helena cheer up jpa scholarship ain't everything!

redang~

2008-05-07T13:24:00.010+08:00

well there r lots more pic but really lazy to post all up :P

redang is truly a beautiful place but sad to say that the place is already a lil poluted. I been to redang when i was in form 1 if iam not mistaken, i went there with my elder bro n grandma. That time when we went to redang, we didn't stay in a place as beautiful as this but then the water there is super clear n the corals r so beautiful then. Its really heartbreaking when i went tis time i saw lots of dead corals n during snorkeling there isn't much life corals around... really hope the gov will take some action about it b4 the beautiful corals in redang dies off...

my mr. right?

2008-05-07T13:00:00.003+08:00

i was juz reading joshua's blog about the type of woman he likes so i juz tot of blogging about something similar. It might be quite embarassing to some people but in my whole 17+ years of my life i never had a boyfriend.It might seems quite pathetic but somehow i juz couldn't find someone who i could truly like and even harder for the person i am interested in to like me back... What i think i look forward in a guy is:

1. loyal
2. mature
3. caring
4. humble
5. interesting
6. taller?

Well why did i place loyal 1st in the list is quite obvious ~ no one wants their bf/gf 2 timing rite? No matter how good looking or perfect is that guy, if he is not loyal to me wats the point? someday he will juz leave me for another girl...
In my life i somehow meet a lot of immature guys who is somehow not realistic in life... they are not concern about their future n tend to think everything in life is easy as abc! I would prefer someone wh is mature enough to give me advice when i am in doubts not someone who gives me childish opinion...
Caring and humble... its true that most girls will prefer guys who is intelligent,good in sports n etc, however no matter how good it that person are, never look down on others!! i hate snobbish guys who think so highly of themself! correct your damn snobbish attitude is wat i would say!
Last year, one girl from my addmaths tuition class ask me this question " omg helena u so damn freaking tall how u gonna find a bf?" in my mind the first think that come across is this " u b**** wats your prob?!" everyone always say that i need to find a guy who is taller n such but on second thought if i were to judge someone purely on their height wouldn't i end up liking somone b'coz he is tall n not b'coz i truly like him?
So i guess that's basically wat i look forward in a guy hoped that someone who actually fits wat i want will actually came across my life, who knows? maybe i will juz end up being single for the rest of my life ;P

jpa interview

2008-04-03T17:50:00.002+08:00

well today's interview were much better than i actually thought! At first i was really worried that the interviewer is scary and the question they ask is gonna be confusing but surprisingly things end up the other way round! the interview we so funny n nice that he actually made the 1 hour interview interesting and enjoyable!! we been laughing thoughout the hour till the ppl outside were wondering y we actually laughed so much! the interviewer actually asked us to choose the question that we wanted and ask us to express our opinion individually. At the end of the interview all of us thank the interviewer and he say that he will difintely give us more than 9/10 from the score~ so kind of him rite? although i know i won't get the scholarship as they are so many ppl who are much better then me in every single way applied for the scholarship i do feel glad that i attended the interview as an experience to me...

the last sunday of march 2008

2008-03-30T13:19:00.003+08:00

This morning is my turn to do the reading in church. At first i was really relax as i have done my reading numerous time in the chapel but when i talk to aunt imelda before mass i started to get nervous! She juz freak me out wen she keep remainding me " helena remember to bow at the altar", " helena remember not to do any mistake..." , " make sure u do properly coz father been complaining that the readers n cantors are doing a lot of mistake and he is very angry about it!" damn after hearing all this i started to get soooooooo nervous!!!! When it was my turn to do the reading i was seriously so scared my leg was shivering that i tot my legs will brake down any moment!!! i did a few mistakes during my reading so i feel really bad about it but the main point is i hoped all the ppl in the church understand wat was i saying... I told my mom about me being scared n that i tot i was going to faint and all but she say " ya meh? i tot u look quite confident and brave there..." * ya rite....*

After mass i rush out from church to meet up with eileen near my house as we are suppose to go for anugerah kecemerlangan organise by pas under DUN at bangi. We were already late and to my surprise eileen is not quite sure of the way... after going round n round the place we finally arrive at that place. To our disappointment the place is actually held outdoor!! i was like WTH?? the place is freaking hot! But anyway the main point of me going there is juz for the cash prize so i guess i can withstand it a bit... the useless camera man from ntv7 keep taking picture and video of us mentah-mentah we are the only chinese there among the malays. At the end of everything the host said " at 7 pm tonight at ntv7 there will be news about us " we were like WTF!!!! Then Lim said " allah i should have wear my foundation if i knew we were going to be on tv..." *swt u r a guy my dear u don't need foundation!!! =.=" *

magazine

2008-03-28T23:37:00.002+08:00

GUESS WAT? I AM IN THE FRONT COVER FOR A MODELING MAGAZINE WUHUU~~~~

How i wish it was true hahaha! Was juz joking, i was reading my bro's blog and saw this link about fake magazine. So out of curiosity i made one for myself to comfort myself a lil for not being a real model T.T....

Anyway to anyone who wants to have their face onthe front cover of a magazine click on the link below!

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my first time debating~

2008-03-01T21:39:00.003+08:00

wuhuu~ today me,tracy n chin initially went to KLIUC juz to watch those debaters debating mana tau me n tracy also end up debating! Seriously we weren't at all mentally prepared as it is my first time debating n both of us have no idea that we would actually gonna debate!! we were like OMG! OMG! OMG! all the way. Initially tracy n i were juz simply suggesting to my bro whether he would like to join us n debate together. Too our surprise he actually agreed n straight went n tell the organiser that we r joining as a team * me n tracy facing a major heart attack*. During the first round, to our surprise we actually won not because we are good but just plainly be'coz the government actually went out of topic. However during our 2nd match with IIU it was really really though we had a topic about ZIMBABWE " i was like wth????" and the opponent is really good that their debate sounds so intense! N for very obvious reasons we lost due to our team which consist of two noobs. All in all i enjoyed a lot today n i hope that we are able to prepare ourself for the national novice debate at UITM on 15 march. I am also glad that iam able to meet wonderful ppl like goh, thanish, manaf n etc hopefully can meet all this ppl again soon~

swt...

2008-02-23T11:23:00.001+08:00

After all the joy i had on thursday, i juz realize yesterday that i left my spects at kuan cheng school sigh... got scolding from my mom again coz of my carelessness. Anyaway i am kinda sick n tired of wearing spects already so this time i am wearing contacts!

my happiest day since is started college

2008-02-22T10:31:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i went to college since 9 and class over at around 5 pm. after that went to mcD with tracy,hana,gaya n hema to buy some twister fries * though mine look more like a normal fries*... after that went to watch our collegemates play football as they have been bugging us to support them. At around 6.20 we walk back to college n when we were in the lift we saw vincent starring at us angrily coz we were suppose to meet at 6 before walking to kuan cheng school for badminton. We hurried down n all 6 of us ~ malvin,richie,vincent,tracy,hema n me walk to kuan cheng together. Feeling quite piss off coz both methodist college n kuan ching is so freaking huge!!!! Neway we played badminton until 10 with most our classmates there n a few seniors. I enjoyed so much as we had lot's of laughter n somehow i feel that yesterday's badminton game brought all of us together! The feeling is juz great! Especially with the presence of daryl,hana,malvin, vincent, tracy n arshad all are suck a great jokers hehe. We practically laugh the whole time. I seriously hope i am able to enjoy my day in college like this then i definitely will not have any regret staying there!

JuZ sOmeThiNG RaNDom

2008-02-17T12:44:00.002+08:00

Well many things has happend during this past two months n i juz am so lazy to blog about it. So today i shall juz write a lil bout wat iam doing for this wonderful sunday. This morning at 8 went to church, help out in breakfast sale as we are having fund raising for the goodwill games in shah alam in the month of april. I joined the net ball team so today we made about 100++ sandwiches and to our joy it is all sold out in juz within 30 minutes wuhuu~~ came home at about 11 am. I had juz read my bro's,adelene's,regina's n kenny's blog and it juz remind me that it has been years since i last blog!! So today i decided to be a lil hardworking n blog * juz an excuse to do my hw later *. I soooo lazy that i haven't even do my law studies n business hw iam so dead as i need to pass it up tomorrow n 1 question is like 3 pages long i wonder how and what am i suppose to write!!! later at 2 till 4 need to go out to church again to for a talk to all church readers,commentators,cantors n also choirs sigh... then come back n go out again at 5.30 for net ball practice... TODAY is gonna be a busy day! I have been more active in church lately so my weekend now is spend on church work.

I have been tag by regina so i decided to post it juz for fun~

1. the person who tagged u is?
Regina!

2. Your relationship with her is:
uhm my other extreme?? regina guess u will understand wat i mean rite hehehe

3. 5 impressions u have of her:

Smart

Lucky * for being able to go overseas*

Independent

Emotional at times

Very knowledgable

4. the most memorable thing she has done for you:
uhm all the things u did n all the times u had spent with me are memorable!

5. if she becomes your lover, u will:
will never happen unless iam a lesbian!

6. if he/she becomes your lover, things she has to improve on will be:
as i say it will never happen hahhaha... =P

7. if she becomes your enemy, u will:
u will never be my enemy no matter wat!!!

8. the most desirable thing u want to do for him now is:
sent u off tomorrow at KLIA *sob i will miss u*

9. your overall impression of him/her is:

YOU ARE MY BEST COUSIN EVER!!!!

10. how do you think ppl around you will feel about you:
uhm blur...clumsy...talkative...super tall?

11. the characteristic that you love about yourself is:
Friendly hehehe

12. the characteristic you hate about yourself is:
lack of confidence, easily became emo, easily depressed n tall...

13. the most ideal person you want to be is:
uhm as succesful as my bro?

14. for ppl that care and like you, say something to them:
Thank you for understanding me n willing to withstand all my grumblings

15. the 10 victims:

~Anyone~

what i want in life? what am i interested in?

2008-01-24T19:05:00.000+08:00

What i want in life? what am i interested in? this is what i have been asking myself. I am so lost... i feel aimless... i been consulting so many ppl and all of them juz ask me back "what you like?". what i like? that is something i myself one to know. Y do i have to think so much? y can i juz proceed in wat i want to do happily? y my confidence shake so easily? wat happen to me? y i keep thinking negatively? y can't i be happy juz like my brother? there is juz so many Ys in my mind now that it just simply make me feel so depressed...i want to stay in secondry school without worries, i want to stay with that same group of friends of mine... i want to be like how i used to be...

i am a fool who can't decide wat i want....

2008-01-23T11:15:00.000+08:00

I have just started college this week n yet i am already worried bout this n that, worried bout di i choose the rite course, am i gonna be a lawyer or accountant?, will i get a job in the future? , can i keep up with the assignment n the tutorial? did i make a rite choice in going for arts instead of science? all this thoughts really troubles me n the more i think about it the more my head feels like exploding! i juz can't stop myself from having all this foolish thoughts... i hope by the next few months time i am able to feel my much better...

a lesson that has to be learn!

2008-01-09T12:17:00.000+08:00

yesterday my bro was involved in an accident.For those who read my previous post in friendster,i had mention that my bro is a very reckless driver. The consequences of speeding is so obvious when my bro was involved in yesterday's accident. At 11.30 pm my grandma received a call from my bro who was still stuck in the car,saying that he was involved in an accident.My grandma was shaking in fear when suddenly my bro shouted in the phone saying there was fire while talking to my grandma. We hurried to the scene. Our heart was devastated when our 1 month old persona was wreck. The front was totally crush and the back n the top was damaged! We were extremly worried about my bro upon seeing the situation of the car. We park our car at the side n look for my bro n nick. Fortunately they cheated death with only slight injuries however the driver of the other car was more seriously injured. He was sent to the hospital when we arrived. Yesterday was really the most scariest scene that i have seen in my life... i usually see accident in tv n in newspaper but never in my life that i thought i would see an accident which involve my family. For those who can drive pls keep in mind,* driving comes with a great responsibility, you must realise that when an acident occur it does not only involve yourself but also the ppl around you ~ family,frens n the other victims...* Never speed! drive carefully n don't think that an accident will never occur on you. My bro is an example, i hope he will learn from his mistake which has cause many damage to us n also to the other injured driver...

* our 1 month old persona gone juz like that*

what i have been doing during my december holidays~

2008-01-02T11:50:00.002+08:00

well during my first week of december holiday i spend my time at both of my aunts house in times square. The best thing for me during my stay there is great food!!!! for that one whole week i ate so a lot of delicious food hehe

then my other aunt brought me go clubbing" my bro was grumbling coz he got kick out when he went there the last time but i can enter, *guess i really does looks older sigh....*"

*me and my aunt at pavillion*

then on the 11 dec my grandma n i went to singapore~

~posing with grandma aT s'pore train station~

*me*

the main reason we went to spore is to meet my uncle from aus who drop by at singapore

my uncle from aus!! he lose weight so much that
it surprises me n grandma when we saw him!

For 3 days,2 nights we been staying in my uncle michael house.

my joy during my stay~ PS 3!!!!! wuhuuuu~

on the first day we went for my uncle's kiddies concert ~ there are kids n babies everywhere n they are all so cute! this concert are mainly to allow kids to experince the feeling in a concert
n the concert is really enjoyable for both the kids n the adults~

uncle steven, grandma,me christina,uncle michael,grandma n uncle steven

well i did a lot during last years holiday i was wondering y i didn't publish this post then * guess i am juz plain lazy* well when i look back at everything it juz seems to happen so long ago... looking back at all my pics last time it juz made me realise that time juz fly... everything pass so fast, i miss all my secondary school frens in secondary school had lots of fun together then but now seldom able to see them since everyone is busy with thier own life. I too move on with new frens,new life, new dreams n new future but i will never even forget my past~ the ppl i met, the places i went everything will remain in my memories forever~

a new year, a new life, n a new begining...

2008-01-01T20:42:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year everyone!!!! may this year of 2008 bring a new hope n a new begining to everyone. May each and everyone of us be blessed with a joyful n happy year!!! I hope that we may have a year that we will never forget!! WELCOME 2008!

i am finally 17!

2007-12-15T22:00:00.000+08:00

i am getting old! NOOOOO00000ooooooooo!!!!!! honestly i still wish to remain as a 16 years old teenager although it is impossible for me to stay 16 forever,i...i... i still don't wan to grow up!!!!!!!!! how i wish i can be like peter pan hehe.

Anyway today went to mid with ft,ying,josh,lim,fan n osp. Was quite fun except for that stupid movie iam lagend or something.... "don't watch if u are faint hearted like me". It was embarassing as at one point ft n i was so freak out that we both scream! n the worst is WE ARE THE ONLY ONE SCREMING!!!omg omg omg so humiliating!

We also went to the education fair, there i met so a lot of kajang ppl guess everyone is also busy looking for colleges haha. Really wanted to spend more time there but i have too leave early as ying was rushing home. At ktm station there were freaking a lot of ppl we even have to wait 3 times juz to enter the train wasting out time...

anywya today was quite of a nice day at least get to celebrate with both frens n family n thanks for all of u who wish my b'day.

p.s: if u have any advis3 for me bout college pls give me some iam so lost! expecially if u r a law student i need your help!

frustrated,sad n dissapointed...

2007-12-11T15:56:00.000+08:00

this morning i was sending sms to my frens asking them to come to my birthday party. Saddly only 5 said they are coming,many can't n the rest didn't reply. Worst of all the ppl i really hope they will come most probably aren't coming. I was really dissapointed as i have planed n hope since the early of the year to have a grand celebration of my b'day but it turn out to be a lonely celebratition. It sucks when our birthday is during school holiday, ppl often forget n ignor... i hate it!!!! i wanted to juz cancel the plan, make my birthday more happier...

opening of 2201 at The Garden in MV

2007-12-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

Well yesterday went to mid valley with chin for the opening of 2201 fesyen avenue which is a shop which sell clothes by local designer. It was quite of a grand opening and i felt slightly regret that iam unable to take pic n post it here. There were many local artise,modals n designer there. If any of u have watch project runway n i wanna be model in 8 tv you will be able to see many familiar faces there. I was really excited when i say alex from project runway, i like her and her design very much and i am so happy that iam able to actually stand next to her. I really wanted to talk to her but i decided not to so that i don't make a fool of myself hehe. Artises like ning baizura,anita sarawak n so on were there too. I particularly enjoy the fesyen show very much, their clothes are very beautiful and so are the models. All in all it was quite and enjoyable day.

i don't have the mood to do anything...

2007-10-06T16:02:00.000+08:00

well spm falls on 12 nov which is just about 1 month + 1 week and iam still not in the mood to study. Not only that i practically have no mood for anything at all except for sleeping. I am in such a pathetic state....can't wait for spm to over...

tonight was much more fun than i had expected!

2007-09-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

I just came home from our so called " giving out confirmation certificate" party but somehow this "giving out confirmation certificate party" become just a gathering. However tonight's party was great! truthfully for i had not talk much with most of my classmates although i have knew most of them for 11 years now, but tonight i somehow juz talk none stop with them! everyone is so easy to talk with and funny, i wonder y i have not talk with them more last time? today's food was a port luck. There were so many food : bbq,mee, cakes! , pasta, KFC , satay, agar-agar, fruit salad and many more! Lavinia is a total genius in baking. Her blueberry chesse cake is so delicious that i dare say that secret recipe is no match for her wonderful cake! Obviously knowing me such a food lover i go up to her and ask for the recipe from her hehe. Although today suppose to be a party for confirmation candidates 07, there are other ppl who attended too such as ruben and saha.Saha is my bro's friend whom i first met during my bro's b'day. Seriously among all my bro's frens saha is the only one i think who is trully trully nice! when everyone in my bro's party that time have not taken any noticed of me, saha is the only one who actually came to me and talk to me.Till now i met saha ocassionally by coincidence but still he will still come and talk with me and each time i talk with him it gives me a very nice feeling, someone fun to talk too. Anyway back to the party, so mainly today everyone was talking bout our future, asking ruben bout hotel managing and his ns experience n so on. Tonight is a fun day and i hope to keep this day in my mind forever.

gerak gempuh have an adverse effects on my classmates's mentalities

2007-09-14T16:38:00.000+08:00

what happens when gerak gempuh is not taken seriously? the answer is ppl start doing stupid things... Do you remember the time when you were young, guys playing with rubber band and lastic anyone they sees with it? and how about ppl throwing small pieces or eraser and paper at each other? Does this sounds familiar to you? This is excatly wat my classmates were doing in class during exam. Form 5 students acting like standard 5 kids...unspeakable...

useless good for nothing BLOODY FATASS!

2007-09-11T18:00:00.000+08:00

There is one useless idiot in my bm tuition class whom i hate from the back to front, from his top to down! i hate him so much that i felt like just punching him whenever i see him! wonder y i so hate him? coz this useless jackass always say the wrong thing and make ppl angry. For example last week when we were queing to pay the tuition fees, this impolite brat rudely just say " hey tallie move away!" i was like wat in the hell is his prob??? he don't see me caliing him "hey fatty move away rite?!" so y must he say that??? there are many many other hurtfull words he use on me for no particular reason at me especially about my height.What does my height got to do with him???? y must he use all thoses words on me??? I had enough! the next time he call me names and say hurtful things again i gonna go rite infront of him and tell him to juz shut his damn mouth and not to talk a single word to me again!

i hate myself for being so easy to be fool...

2007-08-30T15:25:00.000+08:00

This morning i suppose to have my Est exam at 11.30 so i went to school at 10.30. Upon reaching my school building where my class is situated suddenly my classmates at the 3rd floor shouted : Helena y now only you come? the exam over already la! I had the shock of my life, i was thinking oh shit i juz miss my exam damn damn damn!!!!! i tried calling chin who is standing not far from meka who juz told me that shocking news, but she didn't hear me. I was rushing up to clarify the matter with him but was stopped by tan kah yee who is giving my st.john adult cert who out of no where pop up again after dissappearing for 6 months.Then i quickly settle the matter with her and rush up the stairs towards my class when i met pn. puah.Since i tot that my frends might be playing a prank on me i ask pn puah to clarify the matter instead.

helena : teacher!teacher! est exam started already or not???
Pn Puah : ha helena y now only come? the exam finish already.
helena : wat???? teacher y like that??? since when they change the time???
* i was close to tears at that time and almost fell to my knee, thinking off wat i gonna tell teacher that i miss my exam because i came late to school.*
Pn Puah: helena the exam starts at 11.30...
helena : wat? teacher you so bad you lie to me!!
Pn puah : laughing while walking towards her class

i come up of the stairs feeling frustrated that meka and his frends along with pn puah had played a prank on me. When i saw meka i was so frustrated that i shouted at him and at that moment i really feel like punching him for having me freak out like that... I hurried to my class without realising my tears start flowing out, which i think is my tears of relieved,frustration and anger towards my stupidity. Unfortunately my classmates notice that i am tearing and started la that stupid soon peng taking the oppurtunity making fun of me... argggghhhh i don't understand y am i so stupid!!!!!!!!

4 days without internet is such a misery

2007-08-27T14:26:00.000+08:00

finally my internet connection is back after a stupid sort circuit which causes my damn internet connection go berserk! on friday i was so excited as i wanna watch claymore epi 14,15,16 n 17 which was going to be finish downloading in a few hours time, suddenly the internet connection is down! damn... i tried so many ways to fix it but to no avail...juz when i am about to give up fixing it and wait for my bro to come back and fix it for me, the internet connection is up back after a few click at my local area connection tab. wuhoo~ praise the lord hehe. I actually think that god is trying to tell me " my dear child is time to STUDY STOP WATCHING YOUR DAMN ANIME!!!" .

Currently iam reading the final book of Harry Potter, i only read until pg 184 hope to finish by sat since my fren wants it back this sunday sob sob.

Seriously now only i notice there are many pervert living in this country. Myself who is consider unattractive and not at all good looking had actually encounter perverts a few times! I am seriously considering wat in the hell is going on with all this people's mind??? Can't they behave like perfectly normal human and not like an animal?? And worst among all i actually encounter the same pervert twice near my church!!!! for goodness sake pervert somewhere near a church which is a holy place is so wrong! The first time he were following me with his damn bike and doing some indesent gesture towards me although my mom is juz rite infront of me, i gave him one fierce stare and clearly giving him a hint that iam not someone you would like to mess with before i will give you one big kick. The second time which is yesterday, i didn't quite recognize him at first but then as he came closer i realize that damn pervert is wearing the same blue jacket and a blue bike. He stop rite infront of me n my lil bro, then he put his hands inside " you-know- where". I have no idea wat this sick feller is doing he was looking around to see anyone is around, since that time i was clearly in a bad mood after waiting for my mom for 2 hours. Sensing something not rite i immediately takes my bro's hand and calmly walk towards a food stall my mom is in. He then follow me again with his damn bike even after i reach the shop he was riding in a circular motion in front of the shop. I guess my encounter is not as bad as my fren since see actually saw one sic feller flashing infront of her. Haiz juz look how sick some of this people are...

huh???

2007-08-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

Today i went to mid with neo,fang teng, yin ying,soon peng,lim n joshua. We were talking about maple in the train suddenly i ask :

helena : hey neo do you have pet?
suddenly i felt everyone was looking at me
helena : wat? do you have pet???
neo: huh????????
helena : errrrr do you have pet?
shit... i realise y all of them are looking at me... they thought i said PAD!
helena : oiiii you guys don't fikir senget la i was saying pet not PAD!!
everyone burst out laughing

*helena faints from embarressment*

my perfect holiday spot~

2007-08-21T20:03:00.001+08:00

I love to go time square during my holidays! i have two aunt staying there so whenever holidays comes i will go visit them. i juz went to time square on sunday and was back home yesterday. Although i stayed there for one night i still felt that there isn't enough time for me to shop and enjoy there. On sunday my mom,bro and i went to time square by train since my mum don't know how to drive to times square *how embaressing*... i hate travelling by train since it is freaking time consuming! we took 1 hour 30 minutes juz to get to time square. The train is so pack but one guy is really nice he offer his sit for me and he himself stand, so kind rite?

Staying in times square is so convinient, you have everything juz below your house! my lil cousin walk around times square as though he know exactly where each and every shop is situated! What i did this two days were mainly shoping,eating,reading manga from borders, doing facial "extreamly painfull and long~ 2 freaking hours" and juz relaxing at both of my aunt's house. Anyway after spm i plan to work with either one of them to gain some experience hehe.

i know it is a lil embaresing but only now am i able to say i finally watch TRANSFORMER!!!! Wohoo~ you guys won't know how much i dread to watch this movie.Each time i plan to watch sure got something happen wan causing me unable to watch it. This movie for me is awesome but i bet it will be even much more interesting watching in the cinema as the grafics and sound system will be great!

Yah0o~ its holiday time!

2007-08-17T17:28:00.000+08:00

Phew~ finally after 2 weeks of torture i finally had a break hehe. Well to everyone who is having their holidays too i wish all of u a happy holiday and may u guys have lots of fun!

I seriously have no idea where should i start writting since ididn't actually blog for this two weeks... Well i guess i shall jus start with NS thingy

ANDA TIDAK DIPILIH UNTUK KIHIDMAT NEGARA.TERIMA KASIH.

Well last saturday, neo call me in the noon asking me weather i got Ns or not? i was quite blur at that time coz i didn't know that the name list for the Ns candidate is already out. So neo voluntere to check for me tru internet. After that she hung up the phone to check for me. While waiting for her call i was chatting with my mom about "what if" i got selected for Ns. Seriously i don't mind going at all if iam selected, so i am actually excited about the answer from neo. * 5 min later* neo called :

neo: helena so lucky la you didn't get selected....
helena : (dissapointed) seriously i actually tot of going leh, how bout u got selected o not?
neo: " sounds really sad " i...i... KENALEH!!!!! so unfair everyone also tak kena y i kena wan!! fang teng and yee wern also didn't get only i get...
helena : aiyo think positive a bit la it might be fun! anyway u take care i wanna go study di bye bye. * hung up the phone*

So on saturday there quite a few people who ask me weather iam selected or not and unfortunately all of them who asked me all got selected for Ns. However i am SO happy when i found out that lim and soon peng got Ns!!! * setting up fireworks* this is the reason y iam so happy about them being selected :

flash back to May 2nd
we were in mid celebrating chin's and joshua b'day...
chee keong, lim and soon peng were talking when i suddenly jump into their conversation

helena: hey wat you guys talking about?
lim: eh helena you know or not that the Ns name list came out already?
helena : huh? you sure? so fast???? how you guys know?
soon peng : yala come out already they paste it outside the school's office.
helena : izzit? eh i kena o not??
lim : yup you kena.
helena : har.... i wonder am i supose to feel happy or sad...by the way wat about you all?
soon peng : all of us didn't get haha
lim: yah but fang teng, satish and a few others got also they all are sent to pahang.
helena: wa so far! how bout me?
lim : yours iam not sure la...
helena : oh... * i totally believed them *
suddenly all of this 3 jerks laugh
helena : damn it you guys lie rite?!!!!! bloody hell nothing better to do
chee keong : aiyo you ah so easy believe people we over here create story you also believe ~ haiz...
soon peng : joker la you like that also believe hahahahahha...
all 3 of them continues laughing, i walk away after beiing badly humiliated

I know, I know iam stupid and iam easy to believe wat people say but wat can i do iam not a lie detector i can't detect weather they are lying or not when they are able to hide it so well... Even until recently they still brought the story up again and tell to my classmates - laughing at my stupidity. Now lets' look who is laughing when iam not selected but they both are. Obviously i took this oppurturnity to make fun of them back saying you guys gonna come back from Ns looking like "oor lang" ( black) wakakaka.

its only the first week and i already feel like ... dying ...

2007-08-10T15:31:00.000+08:00

i am really a person who stress out easily that's y i hate exams... i always complains when i don't do well which might coz many people to find me being really irritating. Many times during the exams i tot of juz handing up an empty paper and juz giving up. Anyway i guess i juz have to suffer for one more week and after that study continuously for SPM...

more on confirmation pics...

2007-07-23T23:32:00.001+08:00

more pics...

P/S: the pics are arranged form ending to the begining

The soldier of christ

look at the amount of people present!

praying while preparing ourself for the ceremony

from the nearest: nichole,rachel,louisa,sherie,me and michelle

our godparents

outside church

As much as i don't wat to admit it...i do miss my bro...

2007-07-20T17:29:00.000+08:00

yesterday been looking thru my younger days pic and suddenlly i have this feeling that i actually misses my bro...

I still remember how i use to follow my bro and copying each and every step my bro did when we were younger... I remember how he used to be frustrated about me copying every single hobby he had weather it was collecting coins,key chains,pokemon cards or yo-yo...My reason for copying him when we were younger was so that we have things in common and we are able to spend some time together playing all those things together.Although i copy him but he always complete his hobby whereas i always do things half way n juz let it end like that and that is also one thing that make me upset for unable to have my bro's determination to complete things that we are doing...

I remember we used to play together, go places together, and bully each other " or more correctly he bulying me". Although many times we fought , the amount of curses i used on him and the bad things i said bout him,but no doubt i still like him... I used to wish for him to get out from home as soon as possible so that nobody will scold me nor be the one who have the special privilage to use things first... everything in my house seems to be his! weather it is the computer or toys or just about anything. He often say " it's mine!!!" But ever since he is in form 4 i felt he began to distant away from me... He no longer is the someone i knew anymore.He seems to me like a stranger staying in the same house... We barely talk anymore...Whenever i try to talk with him, we will end up fighting... So i decided to stop talking with him after sometime.

Things have changed a lot between us, we are just so call "brother and sister" but we are not that close anymore... I sometimes which that we can remain in the childhood time playing together and having fun..although i was being bullied iam still happpy and satisfied... I used to do many things to gain his attention but i end up making him more and more annoyed of me...i remember that we use to go to leisure mall,redang, australia, genting, my first time to mid valley together... He is the only one for me to play with as my age gap with my younger bro is too big. But now my bro no longer go out with me, i can actually count how many times with my fingers he been out with me since this last few years... I felt sad n i am so anvious of my frends who have great relationship with thier siblings but me... i am neither close to my elder or younger bro... iam juz... stuck in the middle...

confirmation pics and st.john agm pics~

2007-07-18T20:16:00.000+08:00

St.John Agm

lol all of us bully wei mei hehe

y am i the only sesat one without a headgear??!

Confirmation

This is where it all begins~ iam far behind~

as u can see in this pic i and the girl next to me at 5th in 2nd row

was later transfer to the far end as we were blocking the people behind us :(

discrimination towards tall people...

me and my bro~ finally he is taller~

*cough cough* after he stand one steps higher hehe

i hate it when my eyes close when take pic!

from left~ michelle,grace,valerie and me~

Finally after years of skipping school, we got scolded...

2007-07-16T18:24:00.000+08:00

Lol i guess teacher were really pist bout us skipping school every friday, before this she juz tutup sebelah mata acting like nothing had happen but today finally she speak up. Last friday only 11 out of 28 students turn up in class haha damn syok but our record is 5 out of 28 hehe still can't beat it . So teacher ask us to write a letter to her * hmmm anyone got any idea on wat excuse to write?* . Then she lecture a lil bout now is not the time to take study leave and we should come to school as the teacher still got many tips to give and things to teach *pulezzz tips my foot those kiam siap teachers kedekut ilmu keep everything to themself only hehe*. Anyway this week can't ponteng anymore must learn to be a good gurl and go to school quitely while listening to those teacher's "teachings" ...

CONFIRMATION WAS GREAT!!!

2007-07-15T17:31:00.000+08:00

wow seriously confirmation is like seriously nice!!! Finally its over. When i first went to wisdom hall was scolded by tracy and ana for saying i "melebih-lebih" about my skirt. Pls i say it look ugly coz i really don't like it, u should see it before i ask the tailor correct it! then u guys won't say i melebih-lebih anymore! Anyway everone else look so pretty!!!! most of them dress up like princess or even some look so cute like barbie doll,etc tracy hehe. Mr leanord was really angry as a lot of them was not punctual so he look both the doors to the wisdom room and made those late comers stand outside * evil evil * . At 9 we begin to enter church. The whole ceremony were so grand and wonderfully. There is one time where i was so into the whole ceremony i really felt something~ i began to shake and tears starting to roll down. I really never expected me to tear u know, and this is not something i can control it juz came out without me wanting too but in my heart i felt ssooooooooooooooooo happy!! the priest said we did well singing and answering loudly which makes us really proud hehe. I really thank mr leanord a lot for helping us to prepare ourself for this ceremony and thank you so much that u have help us to experience this special feeling and moments. When we sing my eyes have seen the glory we walk into the santuary to take photographs. We are like some sort of celeberities like that, we were standing infromnt of like few thousand people, * it juz like standing in the middle of the stadium* while people taking pic hehe. Me and michelle were ask to stand as the side since we are blocking the others T.T sob sob... We took so a lot of photographs ~ i will try to upload it here someday~

Then we proced to the hall for fellowship, there again we took phtographs and everyone was like hugging with every single person they saw ~ boys and girls alike ~ then we thank the archbishop,priest and not to mention out teachers mr william and mr leanord.

Went home and there were present from my aunt, a teapot set since she knows that i love to drink tea! love the teapot so much it is in the shape of a pig which looks sooo cute! and then my grandma bought me a crystal crucifix with lighting, my mom bought me a gold corss necklace and also my dad gove me 50 bucks hehe. Never new confirmation can get so many things hehe. Then went out for lunch before i go to tuition.

All in all today is one of my happiest day!! was really happy and i hope that my faith will remain strong and be even stronger as time pass.

confirmation tomorrow, YIPPIE!!!

2007-07-14T20:19:00.000+08:00

Finally after so many years of Sunday class,tomorrow is finally our big day ~ confirmation!!! I am feeling really excited and happy, since i have juz done my confession so iam really relieve as now all my sins are forgiven. This morning is a really busy day, i am suppose to attend the morning mass at 7.30am but i overslept, * shouldn't have watch x-man last night* so i went to church at 8.40 while picking up my godma from the KTM station. So to sum up this morning i had, rehersal,confession,choir practice and also decorating the church.

this morning although there were only half of us, 45 out of 90 turn up for the choir practice, we sang wonderfully and beautifully! i think when we sang bersama malaikat spirit of god mr leanord was touch that he even join us singing. He said that if we sing like this in church tomorrow he believe that the congregation ,our parents and god parents will cry since we actually sing from deep bottom of out heart... all of us were really happy bout his comment and we will definitely sing our best tomorrow!!

The commities actually bought many roses, cream, white and peach colour. Those roses were beautifull and they have such a fragrant smell but really hate those torns on them. We actually spent rm 300 for those roses which is really expensive! But i think it is also worth it since it makes the santuary looks even more nicer.

After tomorrow, it is goodbye too all my cathetism classmates, i will miss them so much! Although i must admit i am not close to them all this years even though we know each other since 5 years old but i will definitely miss them. I will also miss mr leanord teachings. He actually gave the class a lot of joy and laughter with his words and arguments hehe. He is the one who taught us not to take our faith lightly and make us think about our faith for real! Although he uses many unkind words in class like " u all good for nothing catholics, useless shit and call us swine,dogs, ass*donkey*" but wat he call us actually give us a knock in our head and make us realise what a hypocrite are us. I hope that through this confirmation iam able to strengthen myself in my faith and also be closer to god.

May tomorrow be a wonderful day!!!

p.s ~ sorry ya that iam unable to place any photo here since there is something worng with my usb port but i will try my best to get some pic and place it here if possible.

skirt ~ confirm ugly and mom ~ damn scary

2007-07-12T16:51:00.000+08:00

i got my skirt after school,tried it on and it still looks ugly so i go ask the tailor again to fix it for me. At 4 pm took my skirt, again i tried it out ~ IT IS STILL UGLY!!! urghhhhhh can't that damn skirt fit my body correctlly??? The tailor seriously suxs and i will never go there again, NEVER! I juz gonna wear this skirt once for confirmation and out from my drawer it goes.

Today asked my mom for permision to watch movie at mid instead of going school since 2/3 of my class will be absent. My mom roar at my request! this is how our conversation is :

helena : mummy tomorrow hor i don't wan go school but can i go to mid or not? neo as me go with her.

mummy : aiyah! i donno la don't ask me!

helena : ...

(after a few minutes)

mummy : who's daniel?

helena : huh? daniel who? neo la not daniel...

mummy : y can't she ask somebody else to go with her? y must she ask u to go??

helena: coz i also interested in watching mah...

mummy : u ah wanna die ah! didn't go school wanna go watch movie!! huh wat is this don't wan study!!!

helena : .... ( thinking in heart ~ i still won't go school rite so can't i juz go and watch in peace? )

during lunch asked my mom for the 2nd time

helena : mummy so how, can i go mid tomorrow?

mummy : don't ask me la, u wanna go is your problem!

helena : (slightly happy tot i can go) so i go ask grandma to fetch me ok?

mummy : u ah really USELESS! donno how to help in house only know how to cause trouble only know how to mah fan people!

helena : *shock* ...( i was just going to watch movie wat so mah fan)

mummy : continue scolding....

helena : oklor don't go don't go lor....

so in the end after long lecture iam unable to go mid... i called neo to tell her bout this but she end up saying " helena, i hate u, hate u, hate u so much better go play maple legakan geram" she repeated that many times but i know she was juz playing hehe.But anyway my conclusion is my mom is really scary when she is angry, she will take back all the things that i didn't help her in house " which i did at least a lilttle" and scold me with it haiz....

as i expected...

2007-07-11T18:46:00.000+08:00

i been having a really bad feeling about how my skirt will turn out and to my predition i am right. Today when i tried out my skirt i was stunt at how ugly it was! the skirt is totally DISASTEROUS!!!! the moment i tried it out, i look like a 60 years old grandma! the skirt was so huge and long. It was so weird they took my measurements how could they make it till like this??? i asked them to change it and make it shorter and smaller so hopefully it will look much better...

cruelty...

2007-07-09T17:56:00.000+08:00

just few minutes ago when i read the news about a 4-years old girl murdered after missing for two days i was really shocked.Her body were chop,charred and thrown into few places. How can anybody be so cruel towards an innocent n cute little girl??? It really freaks me out to think that there are such cruel murderer hanging around in this country. Can't they just use thier brain and think? how would they like if someone did the same thing to them??? this freak deserve to die miserably i hope when they meet thier judgement day god will say to them " U BLOODY FOOL!!! HOW COULD U DO THIS TOWARDS AN INNOCENT CHILD!!" and i hope GOD will make him experince the feeling of the child being murdered himself repeatedly in hell! Each seconds i am here winding and willing saying how miserable my life is, i realise that they are someone in danger of dying... i pray that all the souls will rest in peace and let all this murdering stops once and for all...

i miss school on Friday again

2007-07-06T21:01:00.000+08:00

I don't know y but i have this owful habit of skipping school on friday since form 1! But i will try to stop skipping class since yesterday mrs lim was "shaking her head" n say thati have such a terrible habit when she heardmy conversation with my fren about skipping school. Must learn how to be a " good girl" di. Anyway today spend my morning looking for cloth to make my confirmation skirt. Really suxs got no cloth that actually have matching clour with my blouse! hope it won't turn out to look terrible on me...

random entry...

2007-06-29T18:44:00.000+08:00

today went out with tracy n su yen to the newly open metro point, this place is seriously filled with high school student! we three seems to be the only sesat one from jb school there. Every where we look there are high school student : left, right, up , down! the best part of the mall is FOOD!!! finally Kajang town have starbucks n kenny rogers! besides that the mall also have karaoke n bowling centre, something that might brought kajang alive a bit from its sleep. Weirdly today met so a lot of my school senior. Seriously although i don't talk much with them but i do miss them a lot ~ all the firmiliar face that i used to see in school have now gone to form 6 and college and in another half a year time it is my turn to join them.I really hope that time will pass slowly so i may still be able to enjoy the compony of my frens. I will definately miss the joy and laughter that chin,tracy,joshua n also ah seng brought to me and not to mention lim, affan and soon peng who are really " hentai " but are fun to be with. Sweet juan, Hilarious jacynta and evil rina, baby neo, cute fang teng and ah ying, yee wern, funny ah zhi and also susu each of u guys brings something special into my life, u guys give me joy,fun, share my probs at times and more importantly your friendship, thanks a lot!

Back to my original story, after hanging out at metro point went kfc then i went to parkson. On our way to parkson we saw Phratap. I don't know him much but as i know he used to be a very shy,quiet and most of the time are overshadowed by satyvelu.However when i met him today he seems so different! he has such a well manner and intersting person to talk with. I wonder izzit khidamat negara program which changes him.He seems to be a much more confident person, if khidamat negara trully have this amazing ability to shape someone into a much better person i diffinately won't mind joining it!

Human chess

2007-06-28T17:35:00.000+08:00

Since today is the last time for our cocuriculum for chess club i decided to organise a game called Human Chess. To put it simple human chess is juz like normal chess games but instead of u moving the pieces u r actually the piece yourself. The king's job is to give orders with the help of the others. Those who are killed by the opponent,the opponent will place flour on them. This game is played by 36 people. I once played this game last year when we have st.john area sports day and i found it very interesting so i introduce this game to them since it is the last day and i want to make it memorialble.I am really glad that everyone have fun but the mess we made are terrible! i really need to keep my finger cross that mr tan does not scold me for the mess i have done or annouced my name in the assembly... its so unfair u know i was running around to make thing work and when i came back out of, no where people throw flour on me damn lebih!! Although everyone else actually have fun "which is good", i don't...i fought with joshua a lil when i am going home that time, hte reason iam angry of him is that, he as my assistant should actually help me not dumping me... no doubt that he did help a lil but at the end of everything he juz left me alone doing all the clean up with only hee helping me... i was so pist when i pass through the porch and many people are actually there, they can actually help in the cleaning up u know! who do u think iam am? a cleaner? the anger in me at that time is really undescridable. Anyway i just hope the mess that we made can slip pass mr tan's eyes tommorrow...

juz to satisfy regina's request...

2007-06-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

today went to school as usual in the morning, saw ong holding sejarah book with most of the phrases highlighted. I been wondering y she so hardworking go highlight everything then she suddenly ask me :

ong : eh helena what does sistem ahli means?

helena : * blur*

ong : hiaz how ah later wanna answer if this question come out...

helena : shit... i juz remembered today got sejarah test...

thankfully the first 2 period which is add maths teacher didn't enter class so i took the oppurtunity to study.

later on during pj class we were introduce to a game call galah panjang, this game is really enjoyable for me. The objective of this game is to touch as many of your opponents team as possible and run back to your own base while continously saying " kabadi" * don't ask me wat the hell it means k b'coz i also tak tau * without stoppping or else u r forfited.

fang teng is the first to try the game, when the oppenents team tried to catch her n stopping her from escaping she SCREAM so loudly as though they are rapist trying to rape her! i was laughing uncontrolbly until i actually fall to the ground ~ LAUGHING! is seriously hilarious if only i have my phone i would recorded everything n post it here hehe.

i guess that's all for now, sorry ya if u feel this entry is lame...

juz a small lil example on how irratating is my bio teacher~

2007-06-17T17:25:00.000+08:00

last thursday we were discussing about our exam paper, while teacher is telling us the answer i noticed that there is one question that is corrext that she mark wrong, this is how it goes:

teacher : ok class the answer for this question is <22 .

helena: * was looking at my paper* aiks i wrote here 37 y wrong huh? 37 is more then 22 rite? teacher! teacher! i place here 37 y teacher put here wrong?

teacher : aiya 37 is tooooo high la!

helena: yah meh? i remember i came across someone's paper who placed 50 but teacher give them marks wan?

teacher: whose paper is that? show me!

helena: errr i forgot whose paper is that... -_-" * look around while asking neo n yee wern*

yee wern: my paper la...

helena: oh! no wonder. hey can lend me the paper i wanna showthat stupid teacher! * actually i didn't even hear her answer i just assume yes hehe*. teacher! teacher! c yee wern put here 50 u put her correct wor!

teacher: bring here le me see!

helena: nah! teacher see i correct wat!

teacher: haiz okla okla i give u 1 mark.

helena: teacher y u give her 2 mark but i only get 1 mark out of 3? no fair wor my answer more accurate wat!

teacher:cannot cannot, this wan is later on wan so i give u 1 mark enough already..

helena: wat the heck?! go back to my place * grumbles grumbles*

at the end of the class since she notice she screwed up damn a lot of question but does not wan to admit her mistakes this is wat she said:

teacher: NO MORE CORRECTION! anyone who wanna ADDMARKS I WILL CUT YOUR MARKS!!!!

helena & neo : curse her! useless old lady....

conclusion,my bio teacher is the worse teacher in my whole entire schooling life b'coz she is:
1. stupid
2. egoistik
3. donno anything but act like she know everything
4. talk craps
5. scold people for no particular reason

n many more....

church camp

2007-06-16T15:16:00.000+08:00

to tell the truth iam really reluctant to go for this camp at first coz i tot i gonna waste 3 precious day of my holiday in some stupid camp. I am totally wrong! This camp is unexpectedly fun n enjoyable for me and it is the main thing that made my holiday so fun! My camp is on the 4,5,6 of june it is called a confirmation camp for form 5 students who is gonna to be confirm on july 15 " anyone intrested in witnessing this wonderfull ceremony?". The chinese and tamil speaking group also join us in this camp. During this 3 days camp this is wat i felt n learn n experience:

1. i really felt close to God ~ especially during inner healing n infilling. This is such a wonderful feeling i pity those who didn't turn up for the camp.During inner healing they show us a scene of the passion of christ. Although i had watch this movie b4 but this time i felt really touch, sorry, guilty, my love for christ. Without notice, halfway through the scene tears starting to roll down and iam crying uncontrolbly repeatedly thinking bout ll that we have done to do such a cruel thing to christ i was continuosly saying sorry to him and at that moment my mmind are only concentrated to christ no one or nothing else but only christ i suddenlly felt a special bonding between the 2 of us... the next day we have infilling ~ i was partly scared during this session coz i know there will be many people fainting n crying during this session but it is one of the bst session we have during the camp!

2. talk to other people who i had never bother talk too since i started cathetism class when i was 5 years old.In this camp i realise that i had miss out so many years to be close to other people who are really really nice! nevermind la a least during this 3 days camp iam able to talk with some of them which makes me really happy hehe.

3. i get to know more bout myself and god. I realise my weakness and i promise to change although it is kinda hard ~ the hardest thing for me to change is stop hating my bio teacher! she is just too annoying but i will still try my best!!

there r more that i felt during the camp but it is too a lot if i were to wirte it down so my conclusion it this camp is the best camp i ever had!

delicious food in the most unexpected place~

2007-06-16T15:02:00.001+08:00

usually when we eat nice food we usually think that place is in a nice resturant and strategic site or in a hotel but this place that iam talking about is in a food court! This restourant call "Hong Kong resturant" is located at pudu plaza. We went there since a close friend of my family are spending us there. It seems this "restourant" only limit to 5 tables per time n u have to make reservation a day b4! what a big fuss for a small stall in a food court! Apparently the chef used to be a chef in some famous hotel and after he retired he open this small business in the food court. My first impression toward the place is : is the foor here edilble? well what i can say is the food here is yummylicious! there is 3 main course ~ 1. lobster

2. duck with stuffings

3. birthday mee? that is wat it is called anyway.

this is so delicious ~ there r 8 side dishes in one plate something like the 4 season. There R ~ prawns, salad lobster, yam ring, cuttlefish, abalone,chicken, pork,pei tan " i think it is called fermented eggs". I think with this type of dishes rm 160 for this dish is extremly cheap!

i am so happy!

2007-06-09T13:53:00.000+08:00

As usual this morning went to church to attend mass and also class . Was really shy at first since a lot of them saw me cried yesterday and obviously news spread fast so i was really worried that people will actually laugh at me hehe. The moment father Julian n father William enter the chapel, Xavier was like " ehem...ehem..." i looked at him and he give me this cheeky smile while signalling me towards fr Julian so evil!The chapel was really pack!! Once Nicole and I tot of sitting on the floor coz there are many aunties and uncles sitting on the floor but they ask us to sit back on our sit as they saw some empty seat infront. After mass many of them asked me wat happen during interview and some of them r really nice they offer me a lot of kind words including Terren how amazing rite? I then have breakfast with juan, maureen,grace,valerie, melissa, michell and kimberlly. There were 8 of us but only juan n i actually eat the waiteress was like ~ huh? thats all? the rest?~ After breakfast had singing practice, we really sing out of tune without even following the music but nevermind i believe during confirmation the holy spirit will fill us and we might even sing like angels hehe...Since today there were other people who will be having interview i took the oppurtunity to complete the assingment father gave me yesterday at breakfast sale. I was busy writting n talking to Valerie then Ruben suddenly came to me and say " Helena father wanna have a second interview with u" i was like OMG!!!! I am DEAD!!! y he wanna have a second interview with me???? i was so worried and scared... i am afraid that i will cry again... Valerie was so sweet she knows that iam really worried and she waited for me outside father's office and give me comforting words. After i complete my assingment i went into father's office, trying to be cool.Surprisingly i had an enjoyable chat with father. He seems to be in a good mood and he asked me question according to the things i wrote and few other question. He gave me many valuable advices. He say that confirmation is not the end but it is just the beginning and don't always follow our feelings. When we read the bible we must always refer to our reasons and faith, we must not just follow blindly. At the end of the interview, i shook hand with father and he took my hand gently n said " i might have said something or done something that might made u cried yesterday, iam sorry" my heart melted i felt so relieved and so happy my whole person feel lifely again~ i was just so happy!~ since father will be leving to ROM tomorrow after mass i wish him all the best and he asked me to pray for him ~ i certainly will!~ i went outside and was greeted by valarie i was just so happy and i hug her just feeling very happy after interview and she is happy for me too hehe.

i changed my test answer

2007-06-08T17:24:00.000+08:00

kor and adelene i changed my answer for my friendshiptest already coz i really think the answer that u guys put actually is the correct wan hehe i also confuse btw those two answer. And to kor don't you ever dare to throw any insects to me i promise that i will tear u into pieces if u ever do that! muwahaha

My most embarassing moment...

2007-06-08T16:27:00.000+08:00

This morning at 11.30 am i had an interview with Father Julian to determine weather iam suppose to be confirm or not. I had heard from ana n tracy last night that father julian is really strict so iam getting really anxious about the interview. I reach father's office at 11.05 am. Grace,keith,lester are already there for the interview. Later on Rina,Justin,Sherlie,Shawn and they many other people came. All of them are interview by Father William since Father Jualian is busy .After a long chat, it is finally my turn for the interview.I enter Father Julian's office and he seems to be in a bad mood. I can feel butterflies in my stomach.He been searching his table for my exam marks n exam paper. I finally asked Xavier for my exam paper, everything is ready and we start our interview. Seriously this is my first time seeing Fr Julian looking so serious and not to mention SCARY.... he first ask me y am i a catholic? i was like huh???? i was born as a catholic duh!? then there was a long pause i tot i juz said something is wrong. Then he ask me y u choose be a catholic? I gave him my answer and he is not accepting my answer he looks very unsatisfied...At that moment i felt like iam dead my eyes started to feel watery. Damn i knew tears gonna start rolling down n the worst part is when i started crying is really hard to stop iam so embarass.... Fr notice that i started sobbing and told me that the tissue is rite next to me ~ his expression remain cold... After that he asked me many question but iam unable to answer b'coz my voice is shaky. I guess i flung my whole interview... he gave some work to do and ask me to hand it up on this sunday... I went out n apologise to fr many times. The worst part is there were a lot of people still in the office and iam still sobbing. Everyone was wondering what happen.Then Rina came to be and gently hold my shoulder giving comforting words.Xavier was talking about don't worry there are another interview with fr William. I looked at him and i was like huh? i finish 1 interview with fr Julian not enough ah? u want to see me cry again in front of fr william izzit? Then he asked me u fail your interview rite? i was so blur... i say no!! Then all of them was like "haiz" we all tot u fail that's y u cried . Seriously i don't know i failed o not juz hope i didn't la. I went hope after that since my grandma was rite outside the office she noticed that i was crying so embarassing ~ i juz felt like burring myself 6 feet under the ground~

i love my holidays!

2007-06-02T22:13:00.000+08:00

My whole holiday was extremly wonderful! on the first week,~ monday ~ went to joshua's house. Me, soon seng n joshua were waiting for chin since she is the one who suggest to meet at joshua house at 10.30 am and in the end she came at 1.00 pm how "puntual".

juz look how bored ah seng is...

while waiting for chin i plan to do something funny hehe... i took joshua's phone n started sms a girl call "melody" from his phone. This is how our conversation seems like:

helena a.k.a joshua : morning honey! how are you? love ya!

melody : morning... but since when i became your honey?

*joshua started chasing me around the living room sensing somethings not rite... i nicely bullying joshua! if he come any closer i will throw his new phone on the floor muwahahha*

joshua : since this morning lor... y la u don't wan to be my honey izzzit? muacks!

melody : .... " angry already"

* helena : opps joshua i think i made "your melody" angry already la... hehe...

joshua : helena what u did??!!!! see you sure did something bad wan give me that cheeky smile somemore!! don't simply make her angry leh she stays in peneng anything

happen susah mau pujuk leh!!

helena : "started feeling guilty already"

helena a.k.a joshua : darling...angry di ah?

melody : "still no reply"

* oh o really worried di...better stop playing*

helena : starts teling the truth " actually rite my name is helena iam juz playing a

joke bla bla bla....

everthing is cleared and finally she forgave me for pulling up this prank look how serious joshua looks reading the smses i sent

what in the hell helena wrote ?!

later in the evening went to chin's house.While she is doing her work me,joshua n ah seng decided to go for a walk.

Taman bukit view

eish walk a little also tired ~ hopeless ~

Yummy food!!! u gonna be on my dinner plate soon muwahahaha

tall people

2007-05-25T11:38:00.000+08:00

Since i have loads of free time today " ponteng school coz they celebrating teacher's day hehe" i took some time to search bout this topic "tall poeple". For most of u who knew me probably know that iam tall that's y i cheack out bout this in the web. Before reading bout this topic online i can truthfully say that iam suffering from low self esteem due to my height however after reading bout all the testimonials from other tall girls and the " good and bad bout being tall" it really helps me a lot to build back my self confidence!

here are some advantages N disadvantages of being tall :

GOOD points
1.As a tall person you are easier to remember than shorter people.

2.As a tall person you have an advantage against an aggressor ( longer arms, larger hands)

3.As a tall person you are simply more interesting than average ( hmmm not really...)

4.As a tall Person, you have the chance to play for the Dream Team or to be a good volleyball player. If the question "Do you play basketball?" gets on your nerves, you can respond: "No, do you play miniature golf?" ( this is a good one since almost everbody ask me this questions)

5.Being tall means you can do things which a shorter person can't do: For example grab something from a high place

6.You cover distances faster when walking

7.Your height can give you better views of things such as parades ( so true but really feel bad that i block the people behind me i bet the people behind me will be shouthing " hoi panjang dahlah tinggi dirila kat belakang!!")

8.When standing in a crowd, as a tall one you get to breathe fresh air

9.You can always see the movie screen

10.As a tall person you can reach all the items in a grocery store

11.You can get onto every ride in a theme park

12.Being tall means you can bug your friends about the dirt on the top of their refrigerator

13.Being tall allows you to change lightbulbs and perform other such mainteanence tasks with ease.

14.Longer arms makes paying road tolls easier.

15.As a tall one you can gain 10 - 15 pounds overnight and nobody will notice

16.As a tall woman you get admired from many men ( huh? u sure???)

BAD points

1.Being tall causes problems in finding clothes that fit. ( totally agree in it!!! )

2. Other items of clothes such as shoes become a big expense

3.A tall one always pays more for extra length in pants

4.Legroom in planes,coaches,desks and cars becomes a problem. ( tell me about it....)

5.Being tall means that you often must sleep in a bed that is too short ( thank god that my bed is still longer than me hehe )

6.As a tall person it means that wecook our meals at a kitchen-range that is too low

7.A tall person must live with the fact, that shorter people are often reluctant to start conversation with a taller man or woman. ( i still remeber there is one girl who is so afriad of me at first because iam so much taller then her but the truth is iam not that scary ok?!)

8.A tall person has to duck his head will going through the most doors, or suffer the consequences

Things not to say to / ask a tall lady:

Don't use the classic phrase: "Do you play basketball?"

Don't call her a "Giantess!"

Don't ask her for her height when you first meet / e-mail her.

Don't ask her for her shoe-size when you first meet / e-mail her.

Don't ask her for other measurements like waist, chest, hand-size etc.

Don't ask her if she has got a taller sister / mother / daughter.

Don't ask her to stand in the door-frame in order for you to take a picture - at least not on your first date.

Don't try and hide behind her back if there is some trouble brewing up. Tall ladies enjoy the feeling of being protected too ( so true tall people doesn't mean they are brave u know...)

"Are you really that tall? (NO! I'm really standing on stilts!)"

"When first meeting people they say, "WOW!! You'll tall!" (Hey! Tell me something I don't know!! [rolling eyes]!!)"

so that's all i juz wanna share wat i read in the web which i think its interesting for me if some of this might offend u i humbly apologise.

st.john division camp march 2007

2007-04-01T20:38:00.000+08:00

during march holiday, we, st.john committee organise a camp in school.I would like to take this oppurtunity to thank affan for lending me his digi camp!

p/s: there are more photos to be uploaded, n it is not arranged in order

e field.

balloon and wet sponges are our weapons

ewwww~ a pail full of sampoo foam

wondering wat is she drinking? below~ tomato

sos mix with bread soak in water +wasabi

yucks!

those balloon are freaking huge!

i hate balloons...

water mix with flour

FACE ART

can't u juz show your pretty face gracefully?

whack her! whack her! don't hit me pls!!!

after the opening ceremony it rained heavily!

all the members tent "BANJIR"! pity them

but they still need to sleep there.

GUARD OF HONOUR

trying real hard to not smile ~

it took them YEARS to get the fire burning

me in black~ teaching them "comunicating with

the deaf"

being snap unconsiously while doing something

stupid

top ~ teack soon posing, bottom~ fang teng screaming!

member's preparing to cook while some committee

help them.

chee wei acting cute~

sampoo mix with ais and water

waaa angpow! hmmm... i wonder is there any

money inside

BOOM~ look how scared is that girl hahaaha

preparing to bluid the tent

so nice rite? they are able to bulid it because of my
help u know!

i so feel like pushing them from de back coz they

will never know who pushed them wakakka